It's 80 Degrees Fahrnheit in October

On the third day of this month, I stood outside squinting into the sky, watching leaves fall and feeling the sun toast my skin. The high was 83. I remember last year, the first cold (or even cool) day was October 31st; the first evening of the season I found myself shivering, and it was basically November. I recall the trees and brush getting confused as autumn tried to [] itself, losing their leaves but getting green again bc the coldness had yet to come !

It is the first week of October and I am still wearing shorts instead of pants. And I hate shorts. I wear pants even when it’s maybe a bit too warm to b appropriate. My ac unit is still perched on the sill. My turtle necks and knit sweaters still wait for their turn ! It is October and fall has not begun. 

I am so annoyed by mindless losers who try to claim this weather is not strange and wrong. Like, the conversations I have had or overheard from the type of sheep ass losers who use woke like it’s a slur, it’s reprehensible. The mention of warmer weather makes them vibrate and malfunction, trying their hardest to politicize climate change n shit in a way that somehow owns the libs??

I am so frustrated. I am scared !! It’s so fucking hot. And the winters, when they finally come, are so fucking cold. Bone chilling and icy and not at all how they used to b. The Earth is becoming confused. Hm. Maybe she is not confused, but simply reacting as necessary. The Earth is trying to adapt, but we are fucking things too quickly. We are polluting and disrespecting and taking advantage at such a rate, she cannot keep up. Capitalism and the insatiable desire for more has overcome reason ! Greed is death.

The overflowing walmart baggy of trash I collect along my rico walks often leaves me feeling … I am not sure. The trash I amass on such short walks, recognizing the amount of fucking shit these nasty ppl toss to the ground, pisses me off so much. Cigarette boxes and blunt wraps and resealable weed baggies and shooters and burger wrappers and chip bags and disposable floss picks. So much single-use plastic. These loser ass bitches dont give a fuck. How am I to make a difference when so many people could never care?

I forget to type -ai at the end of a google query and I feel like I’ve personally burned a forest down. Every piece of previously usable internet technology has been injected and infected with this ai bullshit. I have nothing against the intelligence itself, to b honest. I think it is (or, could b) revolutionary. I am just so confused why in its primitive and inefficient state it is forced into every crevice. Cities are going without clean, usable water to feed these data centers. Electricity is being consumed at alarming rates. I am scared !

It is unfair these politicians and rich ppl who siphon from the Earth, these ppl who create unlivable conditions for others, get to live relatively (mm, proportionately) unaffected lives. They move their homes away from failing power grids and raging wild fires and rising sea levels. The ppl creating the circumstances will b the last to feel the impact. I want their lungs to b filled with the red-level air they profit from emitting.

I am so sad. It is unfair. It is sad. For many ppl, the concept of climate change does not exist until it affects them. I know it’s perhaps kinda silly, but this song Eyes Wide Open really struck me as a kid. I recall hearing it over a decade ago, and feeling a horrible icy feeling in my veins listening to the lyrics. I could perfectly visualize the story the music told, and it was scary.

All of it could’ve been avoided ! But to stop consuming is to stop being human, whyd I make a change if you wont? We’re all in the same boat, staying afloat for a moment.

I remember reading abt the melting ice caps and the stranded polar bears between pages detailing Obama and Hillary Clinton’s primary campaigns. For as long as I can remember, the climate crisis has been a discussion. We continue to accept these new catastrophes as an evolving normal. This current rate of consumption and waste is not sustainable, but the effects haven’t touched the 1% quite yet, so it doesn’t matter. Yet !